Rages

It took me plenty of effort to sort things out and put it out here. I have never been so surged with rages. I felt like I wanted to cry and punch someone really hard at the same time on my way back home tonight. Fuck!

I used to be really calm. My ex used to complain me being deprived of strong feeling to everything. I do now. Thanks to her and the last few years when I picked up lots of American temper and mentality. Now I believe that things never happen if you don't push for it. And if you know me well enough, you know I only feel angry on myself - I am angry usually because I am not being measured up to my own expectations. Well... I think the one who knows me best is forgetting what I use to be.

I think I am having too much energy to spare here. My friends say I am getting hyper-active. Yes, I am having trouble to slow down my mind and I want to get occupied. I want to learn Thai Boxing.